I had planned to write all about the happenings on our trip home and I still will, but with all the tragic events it is hard to even stop to write because what I have to say seems mundane and unimportant in comparison. With the technology of today it is truly amazing to feel like you are transported to the scenes flashing across big and small screens. Despite how paralyzing these events are, we still have to face what is in our own lives.
Our family has had much to contemplate these last couple of weeks. Our mother comes from a family of seven children. Out of the seven, five are still alive – all of them being at least 80 years old. The spouses of the two that passed on are also still living so because our family is fairly close, I will include them. Our whole family to include the seven (living), their children, the grandchildren and great-grandchildren ought to pause and just contemplate the enormity of this. As far as I know, of the 23 children born to these folks, 22 are alive and kicking and of course these “children” have had children – I am one of them and I am a grandmother!
But now, we are seeing their decline. I am not geographically close to our family, but I am feeling the pressure of this seemingly sudden change. I know in my heart and mind that the changes have been gradual, but no one really keeps track of the subtle shifts until it finally gets to a point that now we are the ones making changes.
An inevitable question has hounded my heart and mind – one always appears when I am faced with these types of thoughts. Here it is: How am I going to be different – how will contemplating this change me? Well, I need to spend more time with my siblings – value them – share my life with them. I want them to know I love them before I can’t tell them anymore. Busy is no excuse because they are family. I know this includes all the people God has blessed me with by putting them in my life.
We are very blessed in that each of these precious older siblings are surrounded by their families, but we are busy – too busy to stop and maybe bring them together for one last hug and kiss and let them say goodbye to each other. Just a thought and a dream.